I’m sorry to hear that. I have really bad self-esteem issues around my body and I have spent my life avoiding the public most of the time for that reason, it’s really limited my options in life. I promise that there are other people like me out there that would support you if we saw you, not criticize you. You deserve to be you wherever you feel like being.
I hear you, it is a nightmare. I bought my first home earlier this year and ended up moving an hour outside of the city. Paid less than half what I would have paid, don’t have to worry about crime, and everyone is generally more chilled out.