KeriKitty (They(/It))

Very agree here. Less and less is actually GNU, so by what metric do we have to include things? “GNU is an OS?” I’m running two at once? No, it’s three, some of this software comes from BSD. Or is it more? Maybe I’ve got tools developed on/from/for other OSes still! Hell, I’ve got Windows software on this system. Gotta tell everybody I’m running GNU and Linux and BSD and Windows and (…) 🤦

This naming “debate” is absurd.

Edit: I meant to say, it’s really getting too late to push the naming issue as a means of making people recognize how much of “Linux” is GNU, considering the connections are decreasing. Even the kernel builds with clang these days, GNU tools and libs get replaced… I don’t know that I’m happy about this, but it seems plausible (at a casual glance from a non-expert observer) that GNU’s practically on its way out. On the other paw, I’ll be glad to never hear about this naming “issue” again if everything GNU gets buried.

Hmmm, sortof same-ish as last week. Rib still a little rough, doc said it was probably costochondritis from having COVID and will go away. Is taking its time but slowly going away :-\

I think Essentia (local major health system) pumps drugs into their air or something: I always get all excited and encouragey-happy at their offices. Doc convinced me to sign up for stuff and add another anxiolytic. I went in today to peep at one of the thera-things and eep! 8:00-15:00 groupapy four days a week! I declined for now but the critter there was very helpy and I’ma get a new therapist sometime 😅 Looking forward to a comfy one who can provide some hope and help nodnoddle The current one has offered to refer me for a helpycritter who I think will help me sort out all’ the stuff I need to get set up to start becoming stable. Could be good! tentative wigglish-wobble!

Dunno if it’s the meds or what but I keep having these weird perspective-shift things that make me feel all tiny and vulnerable >.<; Am mouse but not scaredy squishy mouse! Am cute wiggly mouse! I think maybe what’s happening is something’s dragging me out of my usual detached kind of state and making me feel stuff that’s reasonably there anyway? Or it’s just upsetting my wiggly skittery skittish lil mind, I guess. Idunno. :-\

Also, this fluffy cat likes me too much now and spends all night in my room MEOWING LOUDLY and messing with things on my desk and occasionally loafing on top of me. She’s cute (and soft) but I wish she’d let me sleep :(

I don’t really have a clear idea of “who I am” but I’m clearly some kinda weird goofy wiggly thingy at my core 😅 wiggles to illustrate

Also my thing is like yours, I clear up (or think I do) pretty quick once I’ve started. It’s just terrifying to start anything that isn’t very familiar :-\ I don’t quite even know the rules for that familiarity threshold. Bleh! 'Course, judging by my amazingly high blood pressure when I started getting that treated… could be I just get past a threshold and go from “super anxy” to “so anxy I can’t even feel it any more” 🤷 Is weird. Am weird. extra shrug to illustrate very-shrugness

I’ve been playing a lot of Space Empires IV 😅 Am gonna keep trying stuff. May have another pass at my Itch library. I’m just kinda missing Elder Scrolls specifically, I guess, and though I could play Daggerfall and/or Morrowind, they just make me miss ESO 😅 Maybe I’ll try anyway. scritches at imaginary itch 😟

I don’t even know if the ancient attic wiring up here could handle a gaming rig 😅

Also, making calls and going places isn’t just “difficult” for me. I get actually physically ill. Even (somewhat) medicated I can be stuck in the restroom anxing for an hour before going on a two-minute ride down the road to pick up snacks from the local shop. I will put off a simple call, incurring debts or penalties or whatever, for months or years just because I can’t get myself to press the button to call. A lot of people say “Oh, it’s like that for everyone” but it is not. “Everyone hates phones,” people tell me, but few dread them.

…Unless it’s like that for everyone and this world’s even more asinine that I’d realized. Surely there’s no way everyone’s just accepted being terrified constantly. Maybe they have and I’m the only rational person on Earth, baffled that the people around me think panic is normal and I’m weird for not accepting that 🤔 😮‍💨

wobbles away mumbling

Thankies! Calling and going are hugely difficult for me so finding and setting up with a new one is gonna be rough. … If I can even bring myself to do it :-\ Bleeegh!

Can’t play ESO because I’ve only got my laptop and it just cannot run the game playably. Had to leave my (rather old but still vaguely capable) gaming box when I fled a few months ago. wobble Something that makes it even worse is knowing I could easily lose interest instantly upon loading the game back up 😅 Something I’ve put a lot of time into tends to fail to hold interest no matter how much I feel like I’ll love getting back into it, once I’ve left it. … I lose interest pretty quickly, unfortunately. Have to have new ways of doing things or I have no interest in doing them even if they’re new things. Finishing games is hard for me because there’s usually no growing or (mechanical) learning left to do at the end :-\

Happy birthday! wiggles happy-wishily!

Bleeeh 🤷 Really wishing I could play certain games. Am missing ESO really hard latelish 😅 Money concerns getting real nasty. Bills piling up upon themselves. Local cash assistance stuff has been unhelpful and I don’t know what to do about that. Finally got a therapist… who seems to be just kinda going through paperwork with nothing to say of her own and no actually listening/talking to me. Just, y’know, filling out forms kinda stuff. For hours at a time @.@ Idunno if it’s really supposed to be like this for the first several appointments but I just feel like I’m not going to get any actual help from her. I think my way forward right now is to get onto SSI and see a psychiatrist and a therapist who’s actually good for me, but I’m kinda afraid to say any of that to her (and make myself look like I’m just looking for free money or something, and… Idunno just vibes-wise, I guess, I feel like she’s not exactly eager to help) and don’t know what else to do 🤷 :-\ So I’m just kinda stuck in this “Well, now what?” spot trying not to think about how unlikely it is that I’ll be able to escape more awful messness. Even having debt collectors to look forward to sounds like torture, given some of my problems.

Bleh. Very bleh! Double bleh with an ugh on top. Also maybe a little grr. frusses noisily, then skitters into a nearby cloud 😶‍🌫️

Edit: Oh, and I’ve got some kinda spot like I oopsed up a rib or something and it hurts a lot when I sneeze D: Also hurts when I move some ways. Unfun!

[Goofy reference to goofy thing https://www.gnu.org/fun/jokes/ed-msg.en.html ] Something tells me that cal is the standard text-based calendar 😅

Frussy. Gotta bus over to an appointment to get my head checked @.@ Maybe that critter can help me get on a cash assistance program. She tried to, but they just (eventually) sent me three copies of a rejection thing, dated a week previous to when I got them. This crap is all very mysterious and cryptic and quiet. It’s just, struggle up the ability to send in an app in the first place, then hurry up and wait for a week or a month and maybe finally get something in the mail from like a week previous saying I’ve got two days (from a week previous) to settle some crap, or whatever. Or it just says nothing and I’m loster than before. Ugh. I’d like to be able to buy soap and maybe even pay bills, which this thing should let me do but it takes ages for anyone to even tell me anything and then I get that sorted and it’s just… …
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>:(

Anyway, if I survive not paying my bills maybe I can get some head-meds to make life livable. I hate being stuck in this horrible hunam hellhole world v.v wobbles frussily

Other than that I guess I’m fine 🤷 Anxing over going out makes everything 😬 COVID stuff clearing up, I think. COVID is lots of fun and I recommend it only to critters who enjoy maximum fun nodnod 🙃 Am playing Space Empires IV, an ancient space 4X game. Can’t fit or run much on this laptop. wobble Uhhmmmm… stuff, Idunno. Head’s all weird, honestly. I’m not sure it’s accepted that I’m even here. Sometimes I wake up and think I’m not. Sometimes I feel like I need to process things that I just can’t because I’m afraid I can’t actually be here, can’t trust anything or anyone. Like I start to think of this place as a kind of home and bam, something goes horribly wrong. … I’m rambling and I don’t even know why 😅 Uhhh anyway there are lots of games I suddenly miss now that I can’t play them. That’s tons of fun :| I brought some random little bits with me, for the projecty computery thingy I wanted to build 😅 Just found some knobs I was gonna use. Didn’t bring the pots, just the knobs for them. Didn’t bring my lil air filter. Oh, noisy bikes. There are tons of noisy bikes in this town @.@ They drive right by my window 😅

Okay I’ll stop yapping now. … I haven’t been talking much so I guess I kinda just blurted out a ton of crap 😅 “Solitary, poor, nasty, brutish, and short” springs to mind, thinking of my life. Odd reference to make there but oh well 🤷 skitters away, hides under a something

I’ll never forget attending CS courses with a guy who got violently angry at having to write code. I assume he’s either thrilled with Copilot or in prison for attacking somebody over its failure to reliably write all of his code for him.

not many people in the world who understand this code.

Kinda sounds like maybe he writes some freaky garbo C that nobody can figure out 😅

Kinda annoying that “top” always means “most popular” for these things :-\ I guess I don’t really have a specific idea of what other meaning would be best but it still seems kinda ridiculous to rank programming languages by popularity. I guess it’s an engineer-brained thing to think of them as having different uses and purposes rather than being interchangeable business tools 🤮 but to me it’s kinda like looking at spoken languages by popularity but you still wanna go on vacation or go live somewhere with an unpopular native language. Like, oh look, Spanish is popular so I’ma learn that but also never go anywhere I’d expect people to speak it, so I’ll be in Finland or something (in my dreams, where I actually can visit places v.v ) all “Habla español? Perkele!” over and over until they throw me out 😅

Edit: Just thought to check, a cursory glance suggests “español” doesn’t get capitalized in Spanish, which I don’t actually know 😅 My Finnish is much better, as I know most of the common curses and a few of the words that go between them.

Sounds super cool :o … Am still kinda salty about M$ blocking my account and holding my copy of Minecraft (that I paid Mojang for, well before it was Microsoft’s!) hostage because they want my phone number, though. 😠

… Also I kinda wanna know if it’s got the moddage I love about Minecraft, but am afraid to ask because I’m stuck on a laptop that can’t really run much without getting all melty 😅

Somehow I hadn’t noticed this place was transphobic. Whoopsy!

We’d best not even ask about the crab 🙀

so-called AI

knows its own limits

frustration noises It knows nothing! It’s not intelligent. It doesn’t understand anything. Attempts to keep those things acting within expected/desired lines fail constantly, and not always due to malice. This project’s concept reeks of laziness and trend-following. Instead of a futile effort to make a text generator reliably produce either an error or correct code, they should perhaps put that effort into writing a transpiler built on knowable, understandable rules. … Oh, and just hire a damn Rust dev. They’re climbing up the walls looking to Rust-ify everything, just let them do it.

My PC currently lives in an attic far from the only place they were permitted to call (or think of as) “home,” after being thrown out (twice) by “family” who swore (more than twice) they’d never do that. Hell, the parents called the copstown guard to oust said PC. Campaign’s totally off the rails and the DM I was told was going to fix everything does not appear to be present at all. I’d say… yours should protect themself first but, if they really want to, carefully consider the full context without falling prey to manipulation again.

…Also I lied, it’s me. More of the story’s in my post history, desperately crying out for rescue. Someone even PM’d one of my hosts some lies trying to get me left on the streets of Minneapolis 🙃 The emotional damage really does help: my mental health needs being neglected left me resistant or immune to some attempts at manipulation. Obviously it’s not a good situation to be in but oh well I guess, right? Better to leave them oscillating between vicious and totally the best, sweetest, most caring parents anywhere and there’ll be problems if I don’t believe it somewhere I don’t have to deal with it. I occasionally get an email, even after all’ the BS. Why the hell (or Abyss, or Abaddon, whichever) I’d want to talk to them for anything but getting the useful things I left behind, I can’t imagine.

grumbles noisily for a while, then wanders off having forgotten what, if anything, else it had wanted to say

Oh, also thanks for posting this 😅 'Think I maybe forgot to mention that :-\

I think licensing may have something to do with it. A proprietary licence will typically prohibit decompilation so if you do it, you’re in violation of the licence. Whether that’s enforceable… Idunno. Often just writing a rule down will make people averse to testing it. Software under a non-proprietary licence probably comes with the source code to begin with, so there’s no need. This leaves a relatively small useful area for this technique, where people either don’t mind being in potential legal trouble (or just losing their licence to use a particular piece of software) or are interested in a specific few pieces of software that don’t offer source but allow sortof digging it out of the binary directly.

having the time and inclination to install Arch correlates with being in a bad place in your life right now.

True for me. I’m using Arch because I don’t have a system that can run Gentoo ;P

Actually I’ve oscillated between the two for many years. Every few years I switch to the other one and enjoy it for a few. … Only, now I’m stuck on a laptop that would melt if I tried to put Gentoo on it v.v I hope some day I will have a real computer again v.v Among other things 😅 😞

How the fuck am I supposed to leave >:| Do I just start emailing countries asking them to take me? I have to wonder if people who say that have considered any part of it.

… Who am I kidding, those people don’t consider anything. Vapid garbage.