Best of luck with the bed bug situation!

I sorta started this week wanting a career change, I just don’t know what or how. I’m just so tired of being in tech because I thought it was a stable career path. But now all I see is a drive to crunch, offshore everything, and perpetual layoffs because the predicted growth didn’t hit “expectations” despite record profits. I’ve found a better position in comparison to my old one, but it is so hard to give a damn about “build X feature to deliver Y value” for bullshit things that are just selling services or more of X item.

I’m glad I’ve moved from a purely dev type role to more so project management/product owner stuff, but I hate being responsible for things that feel meaningless. I hate being the person telling devs to keep crunching to build out functionality to allow our product deals to be onnpar with our competitors; woooh developing for over-consumption! Then completely being neutured to pushback because it goes against what the business wants in profits; WLB be damned. I really want to find a way to transfer my skillset to a meaningful non-profit, an actually impactful company (if it exists), or maybe a museum or something else similar. Part of it is I don’t quite know how to make that journey or if those type of jobs are even available in my area.

I live in a very red state and until recently didn’t have the option to just jump to another more progressive state. But I also recognize that the ability to just jump ship is a privilege that the majority do not have. Even now I am on the fence because this is still my home where I have grown roots. The issue is those who decided to abstain or vote 3rd party in 2016 allowed for the rise of Trump. From there SCOTUS became a right-wing powerhouse and Roe was overturned. If Hillary had won in 2016, SCOTUS would have been provided justices who would not have taken that action. As much as I disliked Hillary, I knew she was the safer choice when it came to my reproductive rights and the rights of other minorities.

I cannot for the life of me find a gynecologist that isn’t some crazy pro-lifer obsessed with bAbieZ and the overturning of Roe only has made this worse. I’ve called gynos in my conservative state asking if they’re trauma trained and every damn time they act like they’ve never heard of sexual assault. It’s all talk of how can we get you to have bAbieZ because how dare you want to be a child free woman in such a godly state! How many other women are in my position in similar red states and delaying vital checks for cancer when the only providers want to shame you? All the decent gynos that I would have seeked care from have no desire to practice in a state that is so restrictive on abortion so instead it caters to the extreme.

As much as Biden’s backing of Isreal bothers me, I will still vote for him because the situation above will only get worse for I and other women. There’s also the whole war against Trans and Gay individuals by those on the right, and voting for Biden is another dam preventing their way of life being persecuted federally. The right is itching to hurt or even kill those they do not agree with and abstaining to vote just ushers this possibility to be greater and allow Trump to return.