I think that sometimes the burnout is internal, rather than in relation to something external like my job. It’s also hard to separate the DGAF mood from other stressors like lack of sleep (something my video game habit has not helped with).

Burnout is absolutely real, though I had a vacation a few weeks ago so I think this is just due to not having enough downtime to myself over the weekend. It seems like the older I get the more distance that I need from people in order to recharge.

I don’t have much to say that might help, except that I feel what you’re saying. Many times I’ve been at a place where all I can do is look at my emotions and think “what the hell am I supposed to do with this?”. Nothing like not knowing how long you’ll have to wade through the swamp or what’s going to help you get out. Sometimes all you can do is keep moving and be open to what’s coming in the future.

This week is starting out complicated. I have a ton to do for work and absolutely no motivation to do any of it, so I’m having to spend more willpower than I’m used to just to get started. I’m coming off of a bad weekend mood-wise and really feeling the “want to run away to a cave and live there forever” vibes, which is also taking effort to move past.

One thing that’s cheering me up is planning out the details of some house changes for August/September, which hopefully will end up going well. Visualizing the end result is giving me something positive to look forward to.

Modal or bamboo underwear - soft, stretchy, silky, the solution to everything I hated about cotton underwear. They are usually more expensive than Walmart (or other box store) brands and take more care when washing, but to me are definitely worth it. You can find them for fairly good prices on Amazon if you don’t want to splurge on name brands, but you have to do the research and check the reviews. You can get them in boxers, briefs, and thongs for men and even more styles for women.