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I can’t remember the last time I got a spam email honestly. I changed my address like 5+ years ago and it just stopped and never resumed. It’s not the email provider filtering them either, the only thing it catches are legitimate but automated messages.

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Starship Troopers is Heinlein not Dick, and it’s fascist nonsense. Verhoeven was right to throw the book in the bin after two chapters and the movie rules.

Never felt it in the first place, weekends always used to be stressful as a kid and it took a long time for them not to turn me into an anxious mess.

From the way you’ve described your mental health problems, I’ve had similar friends who have found stable, loving relationships. So there’s hope, though I know that can be the most infuriating thing to hear.

I literally never have. Same prepaid thing for like 15-20 years. The terms have changed a fair bit over the years but I still only dump the bare minimum for long/no-expiry from the same provider. Averaged out it’s only a few dollars a month.

It has some data now but I still just Wi-Fi hop in the rare situations I need internet.

My life personally is better now than it was 15 years ago. I have some nostalgia for the late 00’s, and if current me could go back I could build something better than I have now - just working not “lol I just memorize lottery numbers” or whatever - but back then I was fucking miserable. Abusive living situation, deeply mentally ill, broke and not yet equipped to deal with it all.

$200,000 for a 1 Bed 1 Bath with an hour and a half commute to the city. It’s a unit, so probably has a bunch of other fees attached for upkeep but they aren’t listed. Area is far away from necessary services, highly car dependent and notoriously crime ridden. The unit is run down and requires renovations.

Double that for a 2 Bed 1 Bath in a similar area.

One, that’s the kind of thin you get from it being cheap and way past the point you’re supposed to throw it out. Perfection.

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This is just not relatable at all for me. Is this an American thing?

Can an object be on both sides of the portal at once? Like if I ran a cable from the inside to the outside. I’m trying to work out how to handle water and sewage, because like everyone else I’ve concluded this is obviously a living space.

I’ve never done it in my own home, but I had a coworker I’d text with even though his desk was an arms length away from mine. Mostly because it could be hard to tell when either of us was on or about to make a call.

The Inner Light was what finally got me into Star Trek.

It’s not like I had never seen an episode, in fact I’d seen lots, but it was comfortable background noise I’d change the channel too as yet another repeat I had no context for aired. Always somehow a filler episode or the second part of a multi-episode arc. I’d written off Trek as pleasantly mediocre and wholly dependent on technobabble despite otherwise being an extremely keen sci-fi fan.

Luckily, on some long forgotten forum, someone described an episode which sounded nothing like the Trek I had seen. As you said, the emotional weight got me good.

I was going to post the same thing.

I lied, I cheated, I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men. I am an accessory to murder. But most damning thing of all, I think I can live with it. And if I had to do it all over again, I would.

Just… god damn it hits hard. Also Sisko’s change in tone turning the final “I can live with it” into a question.

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Most people could cheap out on tools and they’d still last. The average person just doesn’t use the ones they own very often or work them particularly hard. Really, you’re going to know if your usage will require higher quality tools and it’s not the average techbro posting on /r/buyitforlife.

Backpacks are similar. If you’re just using one lightly loaded for an urban commute there is nothing wrong with cheaping out. Spending more is really for people who are wearing them hard and filling them to capacity.

That’s a really abnormal reaction. You sure everything is alright?

I went to the doctor because I was having panic attacks. I already knew I had an anxiety disorder, I have since I was a kid, so I assumed I was only going to resume treatment. The doctor just started me back on some meds like usual, but sent me off for some blood tests out of routine.

I don’t want to get specific but, as it turns out, there was a lot more going on. I’d been feeling sick for a long time. It seems ridiculous looking back just how sick I let myself become but never even considered seeing a doctor about it. I had a thousand excuses for why it might be happening but not a big deal, and a thousand more lying to myself that it was normal and I wasn’t sick at all.

I spent the next two years with medical appointments at least twice a week and referred to various specialists. My inner elbow looks like a junkie’s from all the tests. I am still not close to where I used to be, but I’m feeling a lot better these days.

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